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Re: FREE LIFETIME SCHOLARSHIPS to those who can't afford tuition

Post by Info » Mon Mar 21, 2016 9:22 pm

Manhood 101,

First, I want to lead off with a question: Where would "Furries" rank on the Authority scale from Emo to Terminator? I had only heard of that term recently.

Now, I want to join this academy for two main reasons:
1. I want finally be proud of myself.
2. I want be able to stop dysfunctional behavior as it happens and not whine and cry about it to myself later.

I'm 24 years old, raised by a single mother whom never married my father. He walked out when I was 2 years old, yet he kept in contact with me my whole life and helped out a lot financially. That I was lucky on...but he still wasn't around to show me the ropes on much of anything, especially forming relationships and women in general. Yet he claims to be a ladies man. He always complained that I was timid and shy and such...and gave me no instruction on how to break that. My mom and I also moved a lot, usually to my grandma's house. I didn't even get my first kiss until I was 17, but I'm still a virgin to this day. As far as conflict, I have two modes: Ignore and shut down with words or rage/yell with a vengeance and it takes a lot for the latter to happen. I have also jacked off more times than pewdiepie's view count and have more files in my porn folder than video games and movies in my closet. Even now, even recently I can't stop bitch behavior properly. I get chastised and torn into and I have no idea as to how to stop it other than yelling or telling them to "leave me alone".

Anyway, I found out about your academy ages ago, but at the time I figured I was starting to get better at socializing and I didn't need you guys. I was dead wrong. College was brutal for me...worse than high school. I read your ebook at work for two to three days. I work graveyard shift, yet that book felt like I was getting a caffeine injection in the dick. It opened my eyes to many things wrong with society and especially myself. In other words: I knew I was fucked, but I didn't know exactly HOW fucked I was. I'm not even that old and I already feel like a complete failure.

That's where you guys could come in. I'm in a horrible place right now. I had to leave college due to financial aid issues, I live in a dusty, desert town with mostly old people and teenagers, it took me years to find a job, I kept listening to my mom's advice which would either net me nothing or lead me further into debt, and everyone expects me to do these amazing things...when I just don't feel prepared to do them. My dad even wants me to join the military...after he just told me to go to vocation school. I'm studying to become an EMT right now...because of my parents. I used to live in a semi stable home with my grandma and my mom since she was also living there too. Now, we moved very suddenly and we expect to move again. That's why I can't afford the academy normally. I come to you all for help. I am available for an interview Wednesday at 7PM, Saturday at 2PM, and Sunday at 2PM.

I hope this was convincing enough. I don't really know what'll happen to me in the next 3 months let alone 2-5 years and that scares me. If there is one thing I want to at least control, it's how I communicate and how I convey my thoughts and feelings. I want to be able to get my needs met. Help me.

Thank you for reading,

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Re: FREE LIFETIME SCHOLARSHIPS to those who can't afford tuition

Post by Info » Tue Mar 29, 2016 8:04 pm

I listen to the Manhood 101 podcasts and the Manhood 101 debates and i listen to the professor correct students and to other students correct other students and i think i need this place.

I was raised by a single mother. There was no dad around for me most of the time. There was no demonstration of a relationship. I didn't get to see a successful relationship demonstrated for me. I don't know what a successful relationship looks like. I didn't have a model of a successful relationship. I didn't learn a respect for authority how to take correction how to give correction how to ask for what i want. how to express myself effectively. How to say what i don't want, and how to make people want to listen.

I was always oppressed or feeling so. Growing up I always had to fight to talk. My mom was overly passive and never created and orderly social environment and growing up with three girls and no male authority made it so that i was always feeling under attack and needing to defend myself to feel included. Eventually or slowly over time i began to give up trying to have a voice or trying to have an opinion.

I never learned how to have a successful relationship. I never learned how to correctly express myself. I never learned what it meant to have a successful relationship. I never learned how to share my opinion.

I watched as my sisters bond grew and I was left out because everyone found me unworthy. I watched others bond and felt myself unworthy or incapable and felt excluded. I tried to rationalize what was happening and cut myself off from my emotions. I tried to blame other people. I never took responsibility for any relationship or knew how.

I wasn't given a competent direction by my overly passive mother, and i didn't learn proper socialization from her. I didn't find the support or companionship i needed in my sisters which only made me feel more isolated. I didn't see a functional male authority demonstrated by my dad, because of divorce. I didn't get to see my dad interact with my mom because of divorce, and so I didn't get to see a successful model of a relationship. I didnt have a proper example to respond to.

I never saw a successful relationship, or had the influence that comes from it. I never had the stabilizing influence of a male authority, or learned how to properly exercise male authority. I never learned what it meant to be a competent father figure or male authority. I never learned how to respond to erratic behavior or engage socially. I've always been baffled.

Ive given up along the way and ceased to value my own opinion or my own voice and ceased to try and give it. I have no idea how. I want to start giving my opinion, and having an influence on people. I want to learn how to properly socialize. I want to learn how to exercise proper male authority. I want to learn how to have a successful relationship. I want to learn how to take part and engage with others. I want to learn how to give or take a competent direction. I want to learn how to take or give correction properly. I want my voice back. I want to learn how to give my opinion. The academy is the only place Ive seen capable of doing that.

I watch the Manhood 101 debates and it seems to me this is the only place i can come for empowerment. Its the only place i can come to learn how to really give my opinion. Its the only place i can learn how to properly exercise male authority. Its the only place i can learn to have a successful relationship. The academy is made for someone like me.

I am the worst of the worst of emasculated males. I have grown up without real friends or girlfriends. I am the prime suspect of everything Manhood 101 stands for. I'm made for this place. I am the most spectacularly failed pick up artist. My attempts in that direction are a prime testament to my overall failures. I don't have a basic grasp on socialization, nor a reliable source for accurate feedback and example. I dont know what a successful man looks like from first hand experience.

I want to have a competent male authority in my life without feeling like its gay. I want a strong male leader who demonstrates what a competent direction looks like and knows how to express themselves properly.
I want to interact with someone who isn't baffled by socialization from the ground up like me. I want to receive guidance from people who know what they are talking about. I want an influence of someone who isn't prone to anxiety and weak mindedness like myself. I want someone in my life who isn't neurotic to the point of debilitation.

The academy has the professor who never ceases to amaze me with his accountability to his own word and his effective form of correction, which surpasses the students. The professor has standards which can give anyone a competent direction for successful socialization.

Yet my own standards aren't at his level. I cant even recognize where I fall short. When I hear the professor point by point address students and academic debaters, I find a higher standard of accountability and a greater ability to measure his words. Being able to measure your words and respond accurately to a persons dysfunction shows me that the professor is capable of raising my standards of interaction. Presently I don't even have a road map, so the idea of having standards is a bit unfounded for me.

Obviously my standards aren't very high. But i think Manhood 101's standards are. I can only express my standards as a person without total dysfunction but the academy can create a real standard of functionality. I don't know what a standard of functionality looks like and i want to see it demonstrated and learn from it. If anything I have moved away from a higher standard of functional interaction, and embraced a more chaotic way lf thinking and organizing my life and also consequently the interactions I have. It feels better knowing that you are organized to a higher level of accountability, rather than having to just shoot in the dark without a means of steadying your gaze. It feels better to know you are doing something right, or to know you are doing it wrong than to simply have to guess and feel uneasy because you don't have the type of standards that will make it clear for you. If it isn't clear for you then how can it be clear to anyone else?

I think reading about pua has only led to more neuroticism and emasculation. I need a male authority.

So im ready for six o clock.
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Re: FREE LIFETIME SCHOLARSHIPS to those who can't afford tuition

Post by Info » Wed Mar 30, 2016 7:02 pm

I'm tired.

I'm tired of waking up late. I'm tired of feeling like shit. I'm tired of only doing the things I like in my head. I'm tired of being weak. I'm tired of feeling powerless. I wanna be a god. I wanna be a fucking super hero. A warlord of socializing. A master of pussy tasting. A money making machine. A fucking go getter! Not a no getter. I wanna be a hoe getter. I wanna make my bro's better. I wanna be an inspiration, a Jamaican sensation with no hesitation.

I'm so fucking sick of looking out of my window and seeing a brick wall. I wanna jump out of my window and fly. But first I need waking up. I need The Academy.
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Re: FREE LIFETIME SCHOLARSHIPS to those who can't afford tuition

Post by Info » Fri Apr 01, 2016 9:58 am

Hello Professor,

This is Roman writing to you about the scholarship opportunity. On the website you said I should include why I want join, my reason is I often find myself holding back on what I want to say out of fear of being stumped and stuck there with no response. To prevent such situations I would go over possible scenarios in my head, a habit I've developed. I slowly have been working to prevent this and speak my mind more freely but I still notice the filtering.

Another reason for which I want to join is the social engineering aspect of knowing how relationships work. Ive seen over the years when someone has their focus down you can implant a thought and then later use it to change the course of the conversation.

This is what I hope to learn and more.

Regards,
West ♠️ Chester
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Re: FREE LIFETIME SCHOLARSHIPS to those who can't afford tuition

Post by blokey » Sat Apr 02, 2016 2:41 pm

When I was last at the academy I was living at the bottom of a pit of despair. I would wake up late in the afternoon, hard as fuck, drowsy from the night before, feeling like I would never escape the loneliness I lay in each night. With few exceptions, I would give up early and either jack off or get high. Cross that day off the calendar. I knew nothing I did that day, academy or no academy would bring me the girl I’m always fantasizing about before I went back to bed that night, so why suffer any further? I stopped going in to university, quit my job, started resenting my housemate for how easy his life seemed compared to mine.

On the rare days I would show up to the academy, I would timidly sit through classes, trying to avoid being focussed on. Reaction time would leave me feeling like the lowest piece of human shit on the planet 9 times out of 10, so I would sneak out of it often. I almost always had my first joint rolled and waiting for after my only obligation of the day. I’d be off between 3 and 4 am and end up staying up smoking and giddily spilling my bottled thoughts with my housemate until unconsciousness between 7 and 10 in the morning. I was spending a quart’s worth a week of money I didn’t have, and feeling older and less like my situation was ever going to change each morning. I went to one class once and flipped the laptop you bought for me in frustration at trailer interrupting me. The bottom half of the case cracked off of the top half, and I threw a tantrum in my kitchen chucking furniture around. I hated how far away I was from all of you. I wished the academy could have been a physical gathering.

I decided to stop showing up. I had no money for a new computer, and if I broke this one before completing my coursework, I would lose my place at university, lose my house, my living loan. No option. On top of that, I was fed up of the academy. I was not feeling the progress and the growth I used to feel from classes a long time ago. I didn’t even know how to put into words the longing for a female I felt. I talked about it with my roommate more than anybody else, but he couldn’t help me. Somehow he’s fluked his way into a relationship more desirable than any other I’ve seen with his girlfriend, and meanwhile I’m never talking to any girls ever.

There’s a long middle bit here I’m going to skip out, but in my absence, my misery came to a head one day with my best friend since 4 years old, he helped me see a lot of my issues in perspective with other peoples’ we knew. I stopped smoking weed, tried to fix my relationship with my dad, started going to university again and trying to excel at the assignments, and felt a lot better about being alive. I even managed to complete the 21 day no fap no porn challenge from the old forum, but crumbled right after. Fear of death and wasting my life shook me up for a while, but it did nothing to change the way I interact with women, and a lot of my freshly motivated new routines crept back into old habits after a while. I knew I had no future without this academy. I’m fucked. I’ve known even since stopping showing up that I would have to come back here if I want to live with the abundance of love from women that professor lives with. I do want that.

While I was away I was philosophising, thinking about how professor still hasn’t found a girl he wants to be his forever. I thought why even bother learning the skill, if my appetite will just grow beyond satisfiable measure? Is professor happy? I started listening to some podcasts like the Ben Shapiro show, ran by religious guys who married as young devoted virgins to females of the same position in their faith. I started to romanticise the idea of super holy churchy marriage, until my brother brought me news that the 2nd out of my 2 married cousins is getting a divorce. I don’t know what else to do. I want to be in control of women. I want them to react to me the same way girls do on professor’s phone calls that he puts in podcasts. I want a wife without the ring. I want my girl to drain my balls daily and call me daddy. I refuse to say this to anybody spare a few, and when I imagine it, it’s so far from my actual life that I feel impotent and pathetic.

I want to be confident in my own authority enough to raise my children against the grain of this insane hellish contradiction culture. I want kids soooooo badly, but I’m terrified of fucking them up and burdening them with the same confusion and uncertainty that I’m plagued by. Opening up to my dad about being at the end of my rope and telling him I wanted to get to know who he was ended up being the best conversation I’ve ever had with him. I related to him much more than I ever had before, but I also pitied him more than I’ve ever pitied a person. He’s completely given up on his own autonomy, and subscribed to a meditating cult that claims to be the answer for world peace. All of his stock is invested in it and he refuses to be parted from it. In a way his religiousness is total apathy. Anything could have happened to me as a kid and he didn’t have to do anything because of the passive waves of world peace emanating from his meditating self. I don’t want to end up like him. I want to fight the things that make me suffer.

Most of all I want to be loved, by pussy, family, friends and colleagues. I want to be close enough to professor for him to share his life story. I want to know how he became who he is today. I want to be able to pass on manhood to my sons and their sons, and make it the NORM. I bought a new computer using my life savings. The one you bought for me doesn’t turn on any more and is almost in 2 pieces. I’ve been living on schedule for almost 3 months now. Drugs didn’t work, religion confused the fuck out of me, and most of my friends seem less friends since I stopped spending myself into debt on weed. I don’t know if I’ll get what I want from the academy, but it’s the only place in the world where there are people who tell me that what I want is possible, and I’ve exhausted every other avenue. I have nothing better to use my life for. If I lived in Syria I’d probably join ISIS. I need a scholarship because I currently have no expendable money. I’m 800 overdrawn and living off of a university loan that covers my rent, bills, food and occasional transport costs. I’m in the process now of selling off a lot of old possessions, including a drum kit and DJ controller that should cover my overdraft. As soon as I complete my current semester, I’m going to be interrupting my degree to work full time in a kitchen. I’ll be able to start paying then.

I am available for interview at the start of any class, just PM me.

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Re: FREE LIFETIME SCHOLARSHIPS to those who can't afford tuition

Post by Info » Sat Apr 02, 2016 3:19 pm

Hello Professor,

I am writing this in lue of the butthurt,
I will preface this by saying here is my true unrepressed feeling of reason of why I want to join the academy.

The truth I did not want to show or reveal the fact that my life is not truly held together but infact is a facade. When people see me they think "Wow, this guy has this life together, He doesn't care what people think, He's not ugly and he even has a good job", thought in reality its an act I've perfected over the years.

I TRY VERY HARD TO MAKE THIS LAST!

In reality I am very lazy, not that smart, and a liar.

I tell people things such as "Oh I dabble in FL Studio, ya I know how to program"
When in reality I can count how many times I've tried to do both on one hand and for the longest time didnt even have FL Studio installed on my computer in the first place. I was only able to look knowledgeable about such a subject because I can throw out buzz words from Youtube videos I've watched to put on that lie.
Other things include:

"Ya I have a clean room" I haven't cleaned my shit in months
"I shower everyday" I haven't showered in 3 days saying this
"Lmao you like all that weird porn" I watch that same exact shit

I am just tired of living off all these fake lies.
I want to unlock the motivation I know I have, I want people to know the real me, not the me I wish I could be.

I hate living with the stress that if someone was able to look into my mind they could break my life.

Regards,
WEST ♤ CHESTER
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Post by Genius » Fri Apr 29, 2016 5:58 pm

I am submitting this scholarship application on behalf of Flatbilla who is too stupid to make his own email and account on the forum.
The first reason I want to be in the academy is that I am socially awkward and not good at making friends. I have had to leave three schools because my behavior is so bad and socially awkward I can't make friends only enemies. When I was in 6th grade I got in a fight with a kid over a pair of gym clothes because he thought they were his when they were really mine. He punched me in the ear. I have a permanent bulge there on my ear now.

Second reason is Im not very good with girls. For example last night I messaged a girl i found on facebook that goes to highschool and she only read my messages and didn't say anything. I was only being nice and trying to get to know her. I explained i only wanted to get to know her and didn't want to be creepy and she responded by saying "NO I DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU PLEASE STOP." I responded how can i get to know you if your going to do this to me and respond this way to me. I never got a response so i gave up and deleted the conversation.

Third reason is im not a likeable guy and i dont have very many friends. Im annoying and I crave attention and thats what makes me lose friends is that i act ridiculously, I dont think before i act. I do things impulsively because I have ADHD and anxiety and cant concentrate on one thing for more than a couple minutes. My study habits are horrible

-Flatbilla
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Re: FREE LIFETIME SCHOLARSHIPS to those who can't afford tuition

Post by Info » Sun May 08, 2016 8:14 am

Hello, my name is Jon from Singapore. I've been watching your videos for the past few days, and in the area of governing relationships and building social relationships, I have realized that those are skills that I really need help on. I find my self in social situations where I'm in the corner not talking to anyone while others are talking. In the area of romantic relationships, I have never learnt how to manage them properly. The last time I had gone out with a girl was 2 years ago and nothing really happened, we hardly talked and I didn't know how to run/govern the relationship. I am available for an interview on your Friday at 6pm, which is about my Saturday at 9.

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Post by Info » Tue May 24, 2016 8:26 am

Hello,
I am really interested in becoming part of Manhood 101 and get training from you guys.
I have read your E-book and almost everyday I listen to your debates videos which I can say are very coherent and right to the point.
I live in Toronto Canada and as you can tell this is the fucking faggot capital of political correctness(Our Prime minister is the biggest MANGINA ever) . It is so extreme that it disgust me every second of my existence and it doesn't help with my condition.

I am a very nervous person, it is hard for me to socialize, it takes me longer to accomplish things than the rest of the people, I don't have the kind of job I would like to get and the relations with women that I have had in the past never last. I end up in the friend zone or never get a call back. So, I am a total FAG!!! many of the conditions that you explained in your educational videos apply to me, being angry, emasculated man and very anxious, therefore resolving to porn every time I get the chance. I am the kind of antisocial guy that wouldn't be socializing with nobody in a party and it is worst when I don't know most of the people at any social gathering. I get kind of serious and very reserved and people think that I am angry. Part of that is true. It is very frustrating. One example of my anxiety, is when I tried to get my driver's licence, I failed it like 5 time because I was so nervous.

I come from South America, my parents are divorced and most of my life I have been raised by my mom, my mom's husband was the only male figure to turn to but he wasn't there all the time and you can tell that my mom was the one wearing the pants in the house. So everything makes sense to me now. Media portrays guys like idiots and the only ones who are smart are women, so that was a huge brainwash as well since I used to watched TV most of the time and had very few friends.

The last time I tried to go to a shrink, she said that I have a social anxiety disorder, I tried to do everything she told me and I improved a bit but then I always go back to square one. It is like the method that psychologist use nowadays are just a small band aids and never go to the root of the problems. I checked all the other PUA stuff and got to read books about picking up girls but I came to the conclusion that it si not for me, most of the guys who do that are very awkward dudes and they have some kind of mental problems. Your academy is the only place that seems to speak my language, whose mindsets are kind of the same. I really need to get my balls sack back and behave like a man. Please provide me with some help.
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Re: Your scholarship applications

Post by Info » Tue Jun 28, 2016 7:32 pm

Hi!

I am from Singapore, and have grown up being nice and supplicating in my relationship with females. Throughout the years, and through experiences, i have come into contact with your ebook alongside other "pickup" materials that made me confused and unable to balance between being "loving" (and thus nice) and being an "asshole" (and thus more aloof and attractive...?)

There is this fear in me that if i treat women too nicely it will affect my authority, and this fear of showing niceness and candid emotions has caused me to go against what i believe (i am a christian) at times, for the sake of being "effective" with women.

So currently, i am scared of expressing candidly my thoughts and feelings, and would instead put up an aloof and indifferent front, and it is affecting my friendship with people and with females (somewhat). At the same time, it is a weird feeling because i feel more attractive to them by being so... aloof.

Not sure whether what i am writing about is coherent to you, but i would really want to be able to learn and apply the principles that you espouse in your Ebook, as it is the only philosophy i know that is not damaging to either party. I admit that i need help, and would greatly appreciate Manhood 101's guidance.

Yours truly,
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